Processing

I am waiting for the final signing for the house in Burgundy, which is maddening. It's like sitting with my decision, while waiting for the future consequences to come rolling in.

And on top of that, I had a Japanese lymphatic massage on Sunday night at my favorite place, that resulted in me be laid up in bed for the past three days. Not able to eat food, or drink anything other than water all week. After a little googling I found that I had all of the cautionary (and rare) symptoms of post lymphatic massage:

• nausea
• headaches
• chills
• fever
• achy muscles
• emotional responses

In hindsight, I had these same post-massage symptoms the last time I had a similar massage back in March.

During the past three days, I have second guessed my decision to buy a house in Burgundy, which is probably called buyer's remorse. I have even gone so far as to question my move to Paris, my decision to not have children yet (regardless of my marital status), my profession, past bad decisions (thanks to Orange is the New Black),  and just about every relationship I have/had. I think this could be a by product of the last symptom in the bullet list-- emotional response.

Today I am starting to feel more normal and may even try eating solid foods again. Trying some Jedi mind control to switch around these thoughts to a more constructive and positive wave length. So it was interesting and timely to receive my daily Notes from the Universe today:

It's perfectly normal, that when waiting for a really big dream to come true it seems like it's taking forever, you wonder if you're doing something wrong, and you feel like you should just be happy with less. 

But I promise you, no matter how long it takes, once it happens it'll seem as if time flew, you'll wonder how you ever doubted yourself, and you'll feel like you should have aimed a little higher. 

Aim a little higher, darling, 
-The Universe

Rêves

(An image from my inspiration board)

Rêves (Fr.)/ Dreams (Eng.) Noun: A series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind. A condition or achievement that is longed for, an aspiration. 

I have the good fortune to receive daily email notes from the Universe. Here is a recent one that made an impression:


Good morning darling, 


Here's a question for you:
If you could take a daily pill that would profoundly speed-up the manifestation of all your dreams, would you take it without fail? 

I thought so. 

What if it was a big, ugly pill that took 5 minutes to dissolve on your tongue, and it tasted like medicine. Would you still do it?

Yes, all of your dreams... 

Thought so. 

But what if during those 5 minutes each day you couldn't watch TV, or talk with friends, or distract yourself in any way from your chore?

Wow, you must really want a fabulous direction and clarity in career path, and all those other awesome life changes! 

OK, what if you could skip the pill bit entirely, but instead you had to set aside 5 minutes a day to visualize, in a dark and quiet room, seeing your life unfold as if all your dreams were coming true, and for good measure you had to say or do something, each day, that implied the same? 

No, you can't go back to the pill idea. 

Yours, The Universe

Universe

You must always remember that the universe works in accordance with divine timing, for your highest good and the highest good of others. It has always operated this way and it always will. Therefore, every single thing that happens to you, whether it is perceived as being good (something that you agree with) or bad (something that you are not jiving with), should be celebrated, as it is intended to bring you to exactly where you are supposed to be.

So join me in giving the universe props for keeping us from the people we are not supposed to be with, the jobs that aren't in agreement with our path, the trips we aren't supposed to take, the opportunities we aren't supposed to have, etc. etc.

Thanks universe! I really appreciate it.